Be (Free Write)

Be

There is nothing but this moment. It is fleeting and therefore; I must capture it, I want to capture it, hold onto it, be with it, to just be. I believe this. I can do this. I can break free in time, but right now I just want to hold on. This is all I’ve got, just the moment of now. It is okay to block everything else out and to be just with what is alive in me. I need to feel again, to be me again. This is how it begins, by recognizing what’s in front of me. It means spending more time with the ones I love and who love me. I will take the time to play with my niece, visit with friends and family and to be in the moment. No one can take this moment from me. I need many of these moments but by the time I blink it will be given. I am practicing mindfulness. Every bite of pumpkin pie will be cherished, every hug will be savored—life will not be witnessed, I will be present. The other stuff can wait, the craziness, the paperwork, the constant thoughts, the phone calls, all of this doesn’t matter at the end of the day. I am in existence. This is what it’s like to just BE. Pay it forward!